If the sun’s path can be a metaphor of life then we are always
traveling westward toward its setting. Thus, every event we have yet to
encounter is west and we are heading toward it from the east. Liz and I are
closer than ever, but still “east of Eden.” We named our daughter for that
Paradise where we once walked blamelessly and blissfully with our Maker (Gen.2:8-9) and for the hope of returning to another Garden yet to come where we
will do the same forevermore (Rev. 22:1-5). However,
the arrival of this Eden will not be the return to Paradise, but rather like
the chaos on which God eventually imposed order. It will be traumatic.
It will be traumatic for Eden, because whether we realize it
or not birth is the first traumatic event every human experiences. Our birth is
our introduction to trauma. It will be traumatic for Liz as this alien who has
invaded her body and lived as a parasitic host for 9 months is about to
be…delivered. And while I only use on verb for gentle propriety, I am sure you
can add other verbs and a host of adjectives to confirm the event as one of
trauma. This even will be traumatic for Noah. Before reaching age 2, his home,
family, life, and the world as he knows it will be invaded beyond his control
and changed forever. And finally, as a spectator and active participant in the
entire aforementioned trauma, this event would be traumatic enough for me if I
had no trauma of my own. But I will.
I have now preached my 35th sermon here at
Shalimar. I’ve done my first few weddings and my first handful of funerals. I
feel as if we are finally getting to know one another. But you have not yet
watched me go through an event of this magnitude. I make a special apology in
advance for the first sermon I preach after Eden’s arrival. If it is coherent
at all I am certain it will contain things for which I will need to apologize
and at the very least an untrustworthy level of content. I also apologize for
all one-on-one conversations I will have the first days or even weeks into her
arrival. If you walk away thinking, “Was it just me?” rest assured it was
really me. While I am here to serve you and you owe me nothing, I ask openly
and unashamedly for your understanding, love, support, encouragement, and most
importantly, for your prayers. For, only God Himself can get families through
this! We’ll see you on the west side.
Grace and peace,
Pastor Jonathan
1 comment:
I think you're excused for any lapses in thought until she's home for a bit. Newborns are a lot of work [and lots to get used to]. I'm sure you and Liz will do great, and Noah will love his baby sister when she comes. You'll make a way. Even if it's kind of like walking through a bit of a fog. (At least that's how I felt the first couple weeks after delivery.) Best wishes!
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